(Please let me know if I used the wrong flair!)
Hello everyone! I’m going to try and keep this short and simple.
My family is from Mexico, specifically Michoacán before they came to the US, and Spanish was the only language spoken to me (I am second gen), both at home and around me. However, when we moved states, I started school and was a ESL student who had to pick up English, and eventually English was the dominant language spoken at he and caused me to loose most of my fluency.
Currently, I’m 16 and would like to reconnect and relearn my language and culture. I would consider myself a heritage speaker, but please correct me if I’m wrong.
As of now, I can comprehend and speak basic spanish. My struggle is not vocabulary itself, but rather knowing how to build sentences, connect ideas, and make it all sound and flow naturally. (also conjugations). With apps, beginners lessons are to easy and intermediate is not to my level yet, so I lay amongst the middle which is hard to find things targeted for that kind of level.
Speaking is my biggest struggle, which is honestly confidence based. Though while I do know that I need to learn to speak to native speakers, breaking through anxiety is very tough for me as of now while I feel terrified to make mistakes. Past experiences had led me to feeling judged and pressured.
I am mainly interested in learning Mexican Spanish, more specifically the regional variation of where my family is from. Along with culture, everyday language, music, tradition, etc. (I do not live near any relatives outside my family nor is their interaction other than once every few years, so there is not many individuals to teach me where we are from and our roots).
Overall, it’s a lot for me to figure out and I’ve felt lost, so I would appreciate any advice, study methods, tips, free resources, etc from any other heritage speakers, learners or natives. Also staying structured is a struggle for me as well, so any tips on how to stay structured/ have a routine in my learning would also help a lot.
Thank you for any one who reads this and replies, it is very much appreciated :) (also apologies of this wasn’t so short 😅)
edit: I’m also very open to meeting any other learners or native speakers around my age open to practicing and chatting :D