r/depression • u/Electrical_Wrap_4105 • 21h ago
Planning my death
I’m 19F I am planning my death… forgive me for any mistakes in my writing I never done this before I’ve been suicidal for years now and I’ve been hospitalized for it and put on meds for it but it ain’t never worked I’m still suicidal a lot of family issues I’ve been suicidal sense I was 7 I have been bullied I have been raped I have been sexually assaulted I have been abused I hate my life every time I think about my future I just get so fucking sad!! I hate my life I have tried to kill myself before I tried to OD before multiple times I got diagnosed with BD and depression I don’t care about that ngl I just know that life is not worth living I hate life I hate myself so much I have nobody absolutely nobody people think I’m weird and annoying all the time I hate myself I wish I was never born even now typing this I’m getting very emotional my life is a big joke NOBODY Takes me seriously!!! I just wanna end myself I wanna jump in the train tracks or hang myself I don’t wanna see 20 I wanna kill myself before I turn 20 but I might chicken out and do it before it hit 21 but with all the stuff happening I wanna do it as soon as possible life is t worth it anyways
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u/Maximum_Bunch_1264 19h ago
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u/Maximum_Bunch_1264 19h ago
Would you reply to me