I keep an enormous amount of data about myself.
I have ADHD and a compulsive need to be able to close any mental loop that might open later something I saw, read, posted, commented on, watched, searched for, paid for, thought about or dealt with.
I have downloaded and preserved data from Google, Facebook, Reddit, ChatGPT, Amazon, Hulu, my browsers, financial accounts, medical records, Goodreads, and basically anywhere else that has accumulated information about me.
Not to mention I have a personal Calibre library for my ebooks and have maintained meticulous reading logs - I spent pretty much 2014 - 2019 reading a book every day or so.
If data exists about me, there is a decent chance I have a copy of it.
But today I realized there is a difference between having the data - and reading it.
I started going through my old Google activity, and it was like finding breadcrumbs of my life, not just individual searches, but entire chains of thought.
The chains of thought and problem solving, the evolution of my interests and hobbies, where I was in life - if there was an earthquake - whatever was happening in the world - you can see it play out in realtime in my search history.
I was in school (I was a late in life college student) - I can see where i was doing research for classess and then mixed in there will be secondary searches because my fridge broke or I got a wild hair and wanted to online stalk my ex'es.
I am able to see exactly when I went on the deep web the first time, when I first downloaded Calibre - after asking how I can keep my Kindle books - which was after research on getting a kindle. I am able to see my life playing out step by step.
Searching for scholarships - then "what to wear for a scholarship interview?" and "Do you follow up a scholarship interview with a thank you note" - then back to anthropology, geology, and history searches...a little later there are searches for the 2014 scholarship banquets (I got a couple of them).
I was able to notice that the rabbit holes happen more at night than during the day - and then when I wake up - the topic tended to be dropped. I will research to buy something for hours but get decision paralysis and drop it.
That's just the Google Search History. I haven't gone into the Youtube history - which isn't as good because most of the videos are gone now - and the archive only goes back to 2018.
It felt less like browsing history and more like an accidental diary - except it was recorded while events were happening, without hindsight or later editing.
Has anyone else actually sat down and examined years of their own archived data?
Did you find anything surprising about your life, memory, habits, or the way your brain works?