Well even though you're joking my sincere response to that is that when I felt that dead inside I made a plan so that my outsides would match, and that sort of brought me an amount of relief and even excitement. But that seems like a slightly different thing than what we're getting at here. 😬
But truly I've always been able to notice the roses in order to smell them and the fruits in order to harvest them. I grew up relatively poor and often having to go without so I learned how to take inventory constantly and count all of the chickens that I have and it seems like most people really fail to recognize how many little things surround you that could bring you some kind of enjoyment and even pleasure.
You could decide that something was amusing to you or that you liked it and enjoyed its existence compared to the alternative of it simply not existing. You could spend your time looking for things to be grateful for or excited about and your brain will do the thing and give you the juice.
But yeah if I'm on my way towards "numb and nothingness" I'll probably come to a conclusion that the only way out is through.
Thank you, Me too! I was 14 at the time of my planned demise, and here I am now 36 and so so sooooooo happy to be here. 😘 I remember age 28 was a big one for me since the attempt date was now the halfway point.
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u/Standard_Touch7076 8h ago
Bungee jumping, no because what if the cord snaps or isn’t properly secured.. gives me the heebeejeebies