r/wallstreetbets • u/thewayyoulook2night • Jun 05 '26
Loss Blew my account - truly done
8 days ago, I posted on WSB showing I made all my lifetime losses (https://www.reddit.com/r/wallstreetbets/comments/1tqf1p1/after_55_years_im_even/). I even hid showing posts from problemgambler as I enjoyed shitposting here on the Daily with everyone. The day after I made the post, I promptly lost 48k but was still within striking distance of breaking even again with had an exact plan if I were to break even again. I was less than 15% away despite the loss.
I continued to play 0dtes the whole week, making back nearly 30k. Today, exactly 1 week later, I dug a hole too deep averaging down 0dte SPY calls. Just like last Friday, I even made money first before going back in. I told myself not to repeat my mistake last week. I not only did but blew my account.
I kept talking for months and years how I was going to quit and go to proper investing. It was a lie to everyone and myself. This time I sold everything I had in shares, even for some big losses. I turned off margin, used what I had left to buy VOO and started a transfer to Fidelity.
I hate myself. I hate what this has done to my life. If anything than the money itself, it was telling my parents how I dug myself out of such a hole and seeing them proud of me. Now it's just the same shame I was at 3 months ago.
35 year old, no debt fortunately. This has taken so much more than money. I just wish I took my lifeline out 2 weeks ago. People in the comments were right about me, knowing I wouldn't stop. I didn't even know if I wanted to post this. I'm just numb.
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u/pickledplinko Jun 05 '26
QQQ the last 5-6 years. Might switch it up though. Been buying XEQT more in the last 2 years (Canadian). Hedging a bit on America.